Hailey @ 4 years old

Hailey,

I'm sorry Momma didn't document your 3rd Birthday on the blog :( I was still trying to get the hang of the "Mother of 2" thing. I failed at a lot. And this is over a week late. But never late then never! Here are some things my gorgeous FUN BIG girl is doing!

-FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY full on potty trained! No more pull-ups, potty chair, or anything! For the first time yesterday you pooped on the big potty without your dora seat like a grown up! I am so so so happy, Momma hates cleaning up poop and it was so gross. I am so proud of you for this!

-You got to go to the dentist with Mommy for your very first cleaning a couple weeks ago. You weren't too sure about it and did NOT like the pick in your little mouth at ALL. You were mostly compliant though and were super good. I was proud of you. You have 3 cavities though :( I'm hoping it's just your baby teeth and you will have your Daddy's perfect teeth and not Mommy's. We are getting them filled tomorrow at a special "kid dentist". I am having much anxiety over this but I know you will do awesome and be sweet and make every one there fall in love with you, like you always do!

-Everybody you come in contact with always talks about how cute you are, you are super duper gorgeous but I'm biased so it's good to hear it from strangers ;) But more then that I want people to say how SWEET and KIND you are and what a good friend you are to others, and that you have a heart for Jesus. Your looks will only last so long (look at Momma and my HUGE muffin top! Oh to be 17 and skinny again!) but if you have Jesus you will make friends anywhere you go!

-You start Pre-k in Sept, 3 mornings a week. You are not sure about this and don't want to be away from Momma. You will have your bff Zo in your class and another friend Harper from church there. I am super excited for you and know you will do amazing! It will be a challenge the first couple weeks for us both to adjust (and I'm worried about how Sissy will do being away from you!) but you'll love it and make friends quickly I just know it!

-You LOVE MOPS and get so excited every other week when we go. You sing the songs all the time, talk about how much you loved your snack, what you did with your friends and how much you LOVE your favorite teacher (don't tell the other 2! I'm sure they are just as sweet). It makes my heart happy to see you social and not crying and upset when I leave you!

-You are SUCH a fashionista. You LOVE your clothes and shoes. My land! You come up with some crazy outfits, but I am learning to let go and let you wear whatever you want. Even in public! This is HUGE for me! (especially when on Easter I had the cutest matching outfits for you an Ellie and you wanted to wear 4 different colors of pink. Whatever! You got your way)

-You are still tiny and on your same growth curve so the Dr isn't worried about you. You only weigh 34 lbs and are in the 25% for height.

-Yet somehow you are growing out of your clothes like mad! You have 2 pair of your Gap Skinny jeans that are 3T, I swear you have to suck in your bones to wear them but you manage! You are in all 4T and some of them are a little short on you!

-You have an amazing sweet tooth like your Momma. No wonder you have cavities! Sorry Darlin'

-You LOVE all shows on PBS. I know I let you watch to much TV but until you were 3 1/2 you wanted NOTHING to do with it. So you watch Sesame Street (although honestly it's just background noise while you play/get dressed/eat breakfast), SuperWhy, Dinosaur Train (again don't really pay attention) and your most very favorite ever Daniel Tiger's Neighborhood.

-You will do anything at the promise of "pop" (sprite/sierra mist) your love language is defiantly pop!

There are a million other great things about you but I can't remember them all. You're always saying the greatest things but Mommy always fails at writing them down. I LOVE our nightly prayers and seeing what you will thank God for that night! You really ask a lot of great questions about God/Jesus/Heaven and I think you are starting to get it. I hope I am fostering it and answering right. I don't want to scare you about dying/death but I want you to be excited about Heaven and I think you are! Sometimes you get sad and say you just want to be in Heaven with God! :) LOVE that!!! You don't fully understand what that means though b/c you ask if you can go to Heaven and then come back home. Ha. I really want to do a good job planting a seed but it's hard! Keep asking questions little Momma and I will keep answering them!
You are my fun sweet BIG girl and I can't wait to grow up again along with you. Everything in life is SO much more fun through your eyes. I love you soooo much Sugar Bear!

Momma

P.S. I'm including another blog I started MONTHS ago just so the stories just down for my (and her!) memory :)

This is from a couple months ago but I keep forgetting to blog about it (and if I already did it's on here twice, deal with it people-who-don't-read-my-blog)
A couple months ago we were looking all over town for new tennies for Hailey. We went to one shoe store across town after dinner. As we are pulling into the parking lot a van was driving crazy and making me mad and pulled in across the parking lot for me. They had a bumper sticker on the back that said "Cancer sucks" and in my negative state of mind and being mad at them I thought to myself "DUH who is gonna say cancer rocks!? I mean that is surly stating the obvious stupid people". Then stopped and figured if they were that bold to have a bumper sticker that said that then it must mean somebody in their family had cancer. I mean I can NOT fathom my Mom/Sister/Dad/Brother/Hubby/Child having cancer so I suppose I would put that bumper sticker on my car to show my anger as well! (sorry I am going off as usual the story isn't about the bumper sticker or how they were sucky drivers) So as I'm getting Hailey out of her car seat I saw the family get out and walk into the shoe store as well. It was a Mom, Dad, older brother of about 13-15 and a little girl who was probably 9-13. She was completely bald and it was VERY obvious she was going through chemo. It tore my heart apart and I prayed and confessed my anger and sins and bad thoughts towards these people earlier. Now mind you I had not said a WORD about cancer, their bumper sticker, nothing about these people to my sensitive Hailey. She saw the little girl and before she got out of the car her eyes got big as saucers when she saw the little girl and asked what was wrong w/ her hair. I kept her in the car and explained to my 3 year old in her terms cancer. I said she was sick and getting special medicine from nice Dr's and that she had cancer. I told her the medicine made her hair fall out, but it would cure her and make her all better and she wouldn't be sick anymore! (everything HAS to be rosy and perfect in Hailey world or she will NOTGETOVERIT and you will never hear the end of it if something bad happens. Trust me people, I could NOT tell her this little girl could possibly die. I feel bad like I am "lying" or leaving out a big chunk of information for her but I know life is ugly and she has plenty of time to learn about death and ugly things. Now is not the time) She asked a couple questions but I just kept giving her my pc answers. It had been a couple months since we got back from Indy but she is super duper obsessed w/ my Grandma/her Great Grandma, Grandma Dee. I explained that Grandma Dee had cancer and was sick and lost all her hair and now she is fine! We just saw her! That helped. So we went in the store and tried on a couple things and left. As we are driving away Hailey starts sobbing. Can't even talk she is crying so hard. I had to pull the car over and talk to her and calm her down. She told me she was so sad for the little girl and didn't want her to be sick or lose her hair and wanted her to get all better. Stab my heart. We prayed and both cried and she was better. Of course she had to tell Daddy all about it and he was upset at me but what could I do! Sometimes she still asks about the "little girl with no hair" and we pray for her and I tell her God and the Dr's healed her and I'm sure she is fine!
Sweet innocent Hailey. She has SUCH a tender heart!

She is soooo sympathetic. Not only does she cry for strangers who have cancer, but when Mommy or Daddy isn't feeling well she immediately asks what she can do to make us feel better and offers the sweetest and usually most hilarious things to make us better. If I tell her I have a bad headache "Well, maybe you can take some Tylenol!" lol. Sweet Girl! I hope she never loses that quality and is always sweet, caring, and giving when she is older! We just have to be careful to not give her to much info and overwhelm her little heart.


My whole life I have HATED with a deep passion throwing up. It's sooo horrible, the smell, sounds, everything. I gag if somebody else throws up, when my siblings would get sick I couldn't get the smell/sound/thoughts out of my head. It's bad. I guess you could say I am OCD/anxiety about throwing up. I told Steve before we were married I would handle all the poop but he is going to have to be the strong one to handle throwing up. I just don't deal w/ it well. When Hailey was little, less then 2??  She had a bad horrible head cold, and she had JUST woke up for the day and Steve starts giving her all this water. Like tons and tons of water. I told him to knock it off and stop drowning the poor Girl she was gonna get sick. Then he was feeding her something weird, teddy grahams or something?? Anyway you can guess what happens next, horrible disgusting puke ALL over him. All he had was a tiny bowl and she is heaving everywhere. It was horrible. I just stood there and cried and watched her. It killed me. She has thrown up maybe 2 other times in her little life like that. I seriously pray ALL.THE.TIME for God to spare us stomach virus' and to NOT get sick. If the Girls can just handle no stomach bugs until they are out on their own that would be great K?? Yeah not gonna happen.
In January we got the plague of 2013. It was soooo sad and horrible. Hailey went down for a nap and told me her tummy hurt. She says this a lot, I ALWAYS asks if she needs to throw up/poop/hungry whatever. This time I didn't ask :( What was I thinking?? So she sleeps for over 2 hours and I go in to wake her up, I then go get Ellie out of her her crib and Hailey is walking to the living room and pukes a TON all over. Oh my I lost it. Steve is downstairs and I just start screaming for him. I managed to get a bowl (over the years I am able to move a little more and stifle my tears as it's happening. I STILL scream for Steve every time though like somebody lost a limb. He hates me for it but he promised in his vows to help w/ puke. Funny it ALWAYS has happened when he is home and not at work. Thanks God!) and put Ellie down somewhere where she wouldn't get "into it" UGHHH sick! So for the next 4 1/2 hours Hailey threw up (i.e. dry heave) every 15 minutes. Oh I was sooo worried and cried for her. She was so sad and in SO MUCH PAIN! Steve got it, I got it, Ellie however was spared. I also sent it to my parents where they got it along w/ my brother :( I felt SO bad! It was horrible. Sorry all of this was TMI but I knew I needed to record it for my own self. I survived! Now we all have colds. Colds I can handle. Fluids, vicks, steam showers, humidifiers, vitamins, caugh syrup, I got this!